Saturday, May 28, 2011


Time for me to babble what is in my head again. If I done this at home I'd drive everybody crazy, :). I just keep going over a few things in the back of my mind and sometimes I wonder if we haven't all lost focus on the big picture.

There was a time that people contemplated on life and what was real, now if you do that your a nut. We focused on each other and on current events, how to make things better and how to right the wrongs. Now it seems we are more concerned with movie stars, reality shows, picking the "lesser of two evils" or one that just blows me away is the phrase "a known evil is better than an unknown one". Who thinks this crap up and even worse, who believes it? Have the problems grown so big that rather than address it we just go along with it? We're feeding the elephant in the room yet ignoring it, in hopes it will go away.

I watch some TV and some movies yet I stay away from much of it, I just don't think it is mentally healthy, and studies have shown that. I may go into that later on, on how that works exactly, but there is another thing I want to type out first.

There is a scripture in the Bible that bothers me. Now as I've said before I don't just set around reading the Bible, but I've read a lot lately. I don't understand it all and truth is probably understand less than I think. It seems that there are as many people claiming to know this or that, but just as lost as most, self included. Just too much dogma these days. But anyway, that is part of the drawing near of end of days too, which maybe tomorrow or maybe a thousand years from now.

So here is what bothers me and to some it will not mean much while to those of us who have experienced pain and suffering for a long period, it should literally scare the Hell outta us. Revelation 9:6 (King James Version) And in those days shall men seek death, and shall not find it; and shall desire to die, and death shall flee from them. Now this is scary. Over the years I have seen a couple of times now in my life where death looked good to escape the pain. Where dying would be easier by far than living. While I did chose to fight, a few times I gave up for a few days, I wanted it to end. God however saw differently and so I'm glad he did now.

To someone who has had little to no sickness, or a brief encounter with pain and suffering, I don't expect they would understand. For those of us who have seen hell on earth for many months with no escape in sight, I don't expect them to understand. This passage is one of the ones that people and clergy often run right over as they can't relate, or maybe they don't want too. Be that as it may though, it's there, and for a reason.

I and everybody else that has reached their limit have and option of continuing or stopping, and maybe that is the point of it all. We had that option. I think up until this last event I couldn't understand why would someone just give up. I do now. Giving up does not show a lack of faith, nor does it show anything lacking in a person's whatever. It just shows they are tired. Having said that I do believe we are to fight, but also I know that I saw my limits, and I will never judge another again if they do quit. I see now just how ignorant and unfeeling that was, not to mention boastful.

With science today and the frontiers of medicine it is almost possible, and indeed may be possible as well. Just as anything else, this can be used for good or bad. I'm not sure about anyone else, but I really don't want to live forever. Imagine if you will being tortured and not being able to die. That is hell on earth and basically a living hell, which after being toyed with, could maybe result in going to the real hell. I'm not sure I would be strong enough to endure that. Imagine how weak one would become as a whole person.

So then we say who would do that. Plenty. Waterboarding is a prime example of just that, so was the events that took place at the prison over there. Both events, IMHO, show just how depraved people can be and are. It also exhibited yet another thing, that people are willing to go along with it. At some point we must ponder if we have become the beast we chase. When we no longer are ourselves, then we are indeed no better than that which we chase and will replace that beast with yet another Part of this is bringing people back to life only to kill them again and again. Eventually though, death wins, and I'm sure not soon enough for the victim. I think the lowest parts of Hell awaits those who carry this stuff through and just up a notch from that, the ones who endorse it, and up just another notch, the ones who go along with it, or turn a blind eye to it.

That in and of itself is scary and brings about another passage, Matthew 10:28 (King James Version) And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell. To me that says to fear them that can cause you to hate, do evil in the name of good, or not forgive. These things goes against being a Christian. A dog can call itself horse but that doesn't make it one, and never will.

All in all though, these two short and simple passages are what helps me to keep focus. As I said before, I really don't expect the majority of the people to relate to that, but those of us who do can. It isn't a short sickness or pain, but rather one that drags on and on and on that puts this into perspective. The one that never seems to end. The one where dying is easier than living.

Somehow we have lost focus though on all that counts. I could go into TV and today's music and how it works, but I'll see if any want to know that. It gets a bit detailed and in this case the truth is not only stranger than fiction, but hiding in plain sight. One of those, man, how did I miss that things.

So now we come to focus again. How to raise our kids. How to remember our dead. How to worship God. I really want to touch on that last one though. It's pretty clear in the Bible how to do that. I saw a whole website and indeed a whole ministry based on the Sabbath and end times. Then another "news' place that is suppose to be Christian and has stupid things like, "Was Jesus a Socialist?" What is that? Apparently someone that has Christianity mixed up with something else. While I'm not the brightest bulb on the tree and have a ways to go yet, even I know that.

These are just two of many that have lost focus, if indeed they ever had any to begin with. I think it is important to know why and what you do, then make an informed decision, but as for like the Sabbath thing, Jesus spells that out pretty clear. He does the same with His politics, or lack thereof. He does the same for Money Changers (bankers). Most of what we call conspiracies these days are facts that Jesus dealt with and indeed the world has dealt with from the beginning of time, except then they were known as facts. Jesus addresses especially the dogma of religion, something that got Him crucified.

So these days I am very selective as to who I listen to and what is said. I question what I hear as the control slowly tightens into the hands of a few, and it grows less everyday. There will be a day that blogs like this one, or websites like the one I have, will be taken away. In their place will be controlled information and controlled opposition, nothing new and nothing that wasn't tried before the Days of Noah.

The whole object of the game is to have you lose focus of the reward that you will get, should you follow a narrow course. The goal is to make you lose focus on just how important you are to God... and Satan too. To make you lose focus on how you are loved and stopping you from loving too. While what some of refer to as The Powers That Be (TPTB) want full control over your body, Satan wants the rest and not because he loves you either. Maybe that is what this means, maybe not, Revelation 13:18 (King James Version) Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six. So TPTB serve Satan, each gets what they desire, for these days are not the wrath of God but the wrath of Satan and man. Don't lose focus. Ephesians 6:12 (King James Version)For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Changing the world

Changing the world. Don't seem possible does it, but it can be done. I've mused on this on and off for a while and how that could be done. The answer was surprising simple, yet hard to do. But it can be done and it ain't impossible.

We spend most of the time working on don't and don't haves, or rather that is waste time on that. The problem is major. This is something that I've tried and it seem to work, at least for me. No way that just one person or group can change the whole of the world by working on someone else. So I looked in the mirror. That dude there seemed to be where to start, he has issues, so that is a great place to start.

Imagine, not Lennon's song, but a real imagine on this. Imagine that you can change the world. Imagine that all you needed to do is start, then maintain you. People would probably think you are nuts... at first. Limit yourself to only one TV show a week. Now imagine that you could get someone else in your home to do so, provided you aren't living at home alone.

Imagine that the politics of who does what to whom and who is wrong or right (except crimes of theft and murder) doesn't matter. Example: He/she is Gai. He/she talks filthy. And the list goes on. How does that effect you? It doesn't, unless they are directly in your face. Imagine that you accept them and love them as they are.

Imagine going to town or on a trip and taking it easy. A driver wants over in your lane and you let them. You are in your zone. Traffic congested... not a problem. Someone cuts you off or makes a driving error, and you just smile. You are in the zone now.

Imagine that you are walking into a store and a man is there with a sign or cup, begging for money. You give him some. Imagine that while you are in that store you see someone who is having a hard tome locating something. So you help them. Now imagine that you know or have a neighbor who is having a hard time meeting ends. Yes, even if they are a drunk and their kids and spouse is nice, perhaps they are out of work or maybe you don't know why. But they're hungry. So you have enough money to buy a little something, just for them. Imagine that some person is having a hard time loading their groceries. So you help.

Imagine that you go to buy a house and want it paid off early. So you buy a smaller house, something you can pay off in 15-20 years. The furniture and electronic items you pay in cash.

Imagine that you come to a doorway at the same time, so you allow the other person first, or hold the door for the next person. Imagine that you help a person who has a hard time walking.

Imagine that you have pretty clothes, but you only buy what you need, create a fashion. Imagine when you decide to get rid of the clothes, you took them already washed and folded to someone who has had a tragedy that needs them, or a church that helps people out, even if you don't go there. No yard sale, just a gift.

Imagine that you have more than enough money, and a neighbor goes hungry, so you buy extra to give them. Imagine that you see to it, if you can, that nobody you know goes to be hungry.

Imagine that you have a neighbor who needs help. So you help them do whatever it is they are doing. No charge.

Imagine that you run into an old person who is lonely, or possibly a kid that is confused. So you take time to listen and maybe speak with that person. Imagine that you take that time since TV is cut off all but one night viewing it. Now imagine that maybe it is your spouse or child that needs a shoulder.

Imagine that you have enough, so you take care and make sure if you have more to share that with someone. If someone is in need you are there.

Imagine that you yield to animals rather than run over them. They count too. Imagine that you walk in a park or field and look at the beauty of it all. Imagine that you muse the sky at the colors it has. Imagine you take time to be still.

Imagine that you do this, even when it is hard to do, but you do it anyway. It gets easier and easier as you do this and already you feel His grace. It's a full size that fills one up, but for someone new it feels a little funny at first. It isn't one that is all understood, even by those who practice life like this. It's hard to do but at the same time the fullness of the day leaves one refreshed... most times.

Imagine that after a few months of little to no TV, telling you what the newest thing is that you just can't live without. You no longer need what they are selling in the grand scheme of things for the most part. That keeps you out of debt or at least no new debt. The biggest thing is, you may just start being content with what you have.

Imagine that your actions would change because you no longer know what television tells you to act like through their stereotypes. Imagine not being prejudice because of this, prejudice is not a trait, it is learned.

So imagine that each person thinks of another person first and themselves last. Imagine that each person sees their own faults and works on them. Imagine that we begin to say we instead of I. What if I didn't think of myself but everyone else first and everyone else thought like that.

The world has had division for thousands of years and done just fine. True, there were wars, but at least not everyday like we have now. This world is no smaller than it was, yet people act like it is too small for people to be different. It was a world full of amazement with all the different peoples. A world of wonders. A world of mutual respect. Now it gets closer and closer to people being just a clone of what those that rule wish it to be. But just imagine if we had respect for the other person.

Just think about if we stopped looking for differences between us and begun looking for common ground. Different is what makes life worth getting up for. Just like opposite ends attract on a magnet, so could the differences be with humans. It could be a better place. It would be a better place.

Is it that we are so deep in the forest that we feel so lost that we stand still, or run in circles? But why? Why is it that we have given our power away to the hands of a few and like puppets, we dangle on their strings of what they prescribe us to act like, feel, and do. The world has lost it's way so that we feel so insignificant. I don't know, but maybe we have so many problems that we just don't know where to start. Maybe it is fear of nothingness if we try. But what exactly do we have to loose.

We all have power within us, true power, but just on ourselves and that is a lot of power. Our power though has limits because it is only true power over ourselves. So though we may not be able to change the world, and there will always be problems that arise, but each keeping in check one person, them self. Our little corner of the world will change and maybe we would shine bright enough for another to see this peace and joy, they might just change too. It would make them different than each other, yet the same in joy and peacefulness.

So what if I am the last person I think about. If I am the last person I am concerned for. What if I focus on defects in me. What if I care less about me and more for someone else, everyone else, and they for me. Really cared. What if it become live and let live. Certain the world would not be a great place because this isn't possible to get 100% cooperation, but it would be better.

So we look at this like a huge rock that needs moved. We can't pick it up and move it, it's just too big. It can't stay there, it's in the way. So we chip at it until piece by piece it becomes smaller and eventually is removed. Rather than change the whole of the world, I'll just do my little corner of it.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

The End ???

I never watch the news but a friend keeps me abreast of events. So I hear that the end is near and a date is given. Too funny in a way yet sad in another. I'm not sure what to make of this event, and the ones who fell for it. It makes me to muse what is wrong with the world today. I really don't know the details behind it all, been too busy lately with life. Mark 13:22 "For false Christs and false prophets shall rise, and shall shew signs and wonders, to seduce, if it were possible, even the elect."

So here is what I've been thinking (musing) about and like always it's just what I think, I could be wrong. Personally I think this is nothing more than a stunt to make Christians look foolish... again. I can't get past that want that people seem to need for a disaster. I wonder if people really consider the ramifications of the Second Coming. Perhaps we don't. I know I hope and pray that if I am here that day that I will go, but sadly people I love might not. People that I've met over the years, but it is not for me to say, who knows, they may go and I be left behind. Matthew 24:27 "For as the lightning cometh out of the east, and shineth even unto the west; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be."

So when is the date? There isn't one in my honest opinion, it is not date driven and if it is then it is not for us to know. It goes along with when people ask questions like why did God do this or that. From what little I've studied there is an answer to why things are going wrong. This is the wrath of Satan and man, this is his and our doings. Eventually God will say enough and His wrath will come, but it is His own timing. Revelation 18:18 "Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six." The bad that is here and now are or in my estimation attributed to Satan and man.

I often think though the Second Coming will be scary. I know that I wonder what if He comes and I'm driving in traffic, or getting mad at someone, or doing something I shouldn't be doing like that. The blink of an eye. I'm by far a saint, so will I be doing good every blink of an eye? Probably not. In my thoughts I think it will be during or after the Tribulation. We ain't quite there yet. There are some really good books I've read, one of the books is "As The Days Of Noah Were".

I wonder if people really consider what Jesus was talking about when He said in Matthew 37, "But as the days of Noah were, so shall also the coming of the Son of man be." It would take a book to write about that, and still we'd not be able to know it all. These were bad times. Rather than a quote I'll place a link HERE, read it slowly and well. I really don't want to be where for that.

So when is the end or the Second Coming? Who knows. I don't think we are at the end, but we're at the beginning of the end. Maybe God has decided to let us pick the date He returns, maybe not. It seems to be event driven and we have Freewill, so we can change it maybe. I can't see why a Christian would rush the end. I know plenty of good people that haven't accepted Jesus that are good people. So, when I hear people say the end should hurry, is that the Christian way. That to me is the forget everybody else, what about me thing. That ain't right.

Then some who mock Christianity say where is he now? Why hasn't He come yet? I usually smile and say, thank God He hasn't come earlier, for I would have not been ready. Maybe He is waiting on you. As abstract as that sounds, each of us is that important to Him. Maybe there is an event to put you closer to Him just around the corner, so pray that He waits for you.

This kind of goes along with where is it in the Bible about Dinosaurs. Simple, God didn't create them. That doesn't mean they weren't here and in Genesis 6 (there are other books too) that make quite clear what was happening. It also explains why scientist can't figure out what they were. Reptile or bird. But it gets deeper than that, much deeper.

So we look for signs and wonders, yet we're told not to look for them too. It gets kind of confusing until you ponder over that just a tad bit. We can know and see the signs and wonders and yet not dwell on them and certainly not look forward to them. "Even him, whose coming is after the working of Satan with all power and signs and lying wonders," Matthew 13:3 "And in the morning, It will be foul weather to day: for the sky is red and lowering. O ye hypocrites, ye can discern the face of the sky; but can ye not discern the signs of the times?" There is just some many references to the signs, and they are happening now. But to truly see what else is lacking, we must refer back to the days of Noah. There is a good book called "As the days of Noah were" that paints a picture. Then on Chris White's site he has a lot of info on that too. And for those that think it's not in the Bible, they both quote scriptures.

Then again, at the rate we are going, it may not be long. That makes me sad. This world can slap a body down, suck at times, and seem drudgery. We climb the mountains and hills throughout life, but I want my kids and grandkids to have the same opportunity as I have had... better. Does this life compare to life with Jesus? No, but I think we're suppose to live it.

I would almost like to go through the Bible placing up events that are now beginning to be seem as common place that were written down thousands of years ago. There isn't any straining or stretching things to fit, they're there in black and white, we just read over them. But the end is not now... I don't think, but we are set on a course for it to begin to end. Now maybe we can change it and maybe we can't. Maybe we can slow it down, and maybe we can't. Whatever the correct answer is, I think we're suppose to try. If had He have wanted us to just lay around and watch...we'd be a Clam.

If I'm right and it is event driven, we have a ways to go, but we're covering ground fast. So how on earth would we know when? We won't. If you want your generations to make it or to have a life here in this realm, we have to change. I'll write on that too since that had been pressing on my mind to write about.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Roads remembered

I think we all are born with a develop certain gifts. Some of these gifts we use and sometimes we don't acknowledge some of our gifts. Maybe because we're told they aren't gifts and sometimes because the world doesn't consider then gifts, who knows, maybe even for monitory reasons. We all different in what we receive and acknowledge, but that really isn't the beauty of it. The beauty comes when we acknowledge and accept the gifts that another has been given as equally important.

For years I remember questioning if I was a Christian. Then for many years I just forgot about it. I vividly remember to this day one certain time, one which would set me on a different course. In the school auditorium, about seventh grade, certainly no later than the eighth. I believe the seventh though. It was asked that all Christians hold up their hand. This was some kind of meeting, nothing religious, but I don't remember what it was about. What I do remember is starting to raise my hand, then I placed it back down. I got a few strange looks and some I don't think really cared.

Now, years later I still remember that day. I don't recall specific details of others, just myself. I raised my hand and got some weird looks, so I lowered it. I still got strange looks from the same people. To date I still remember who a few of them were and the looks on their faces. There I sat, a million things hit at once, all were trivial as I see today.

I had long hair and a scraggly beard (I was young and trying to grow one). I rode a motorcycle and back in the seventies movies had portrayed all bikers as bad, especially those with long hair. I partied a little, and hung out at the pool hall which was known for drugs and being a rough place. I had tried pot and while many of my friends liked it, I just wasn't crazy about it. Still, I was accused of it, and after a while I figured whatever, so I let sleeping dogs lie.

I didn't grow up in church, but we went a few times a year. When I was a kid I had never heard of Mother Goose, Annie or Papa would read us something from the Bible though. We didn't have a clue what they were talking about, but it stuck. We were taught right from wrong and Christian values. Still, when I would ride my bike to church, as I sat there, I got very strange peers from many sitting there. Sometimes even points and occasionally hear whispers from adults about me. Their kids done things I would not have considered doing, but they looked like clean cut kids. These were the kids who stared intensely when I both raised my hand the lowered it that day. One could say damned if you do and damned if you don't.

Looking back now I still can't help but wonder, did they actually see me. Did they actually see anything past their own false glory? The only thing I am sure about is that God saw me. It effected me so much that day that the next opportunity that came I raised my hand, and I raised it high! I still didn't go to church. My hair was longer and I had a decent beard, full and unkept. To "them" I probably looked like crap sitting there, but that was ok with me. I felt inside like a weight was lifted because to Jesus I looked good. To me, I felt good.

It would be years though before I would go back to church regularly, and only to be interrupted again. I quite well remember that day as well. At the end of the service the preacher met as people exited the building to shake hands. He smiled as he shook my hand and whispered, "You need to get both feet in or both feet out." We only went for preaching. I worked all the time and wasn't off to attend on Wednesday nights and slept late on Sundays, so I didn't go to Bible Study in the mornings and by evening I didn't go, I rested for the week ahead. I just wanted to hear the preaching. I backed up and before I thought my response was, "Well Hell, thats not a problem now is it." Even unto this day I've never went regularly. I do listen to preachers on the Web and on a radio station called 106.9 The Light.

Over the years I've read, listened to different preachers. I've explored my Cherokee (I have no problem with) roots and looked at different religions. Guess I've been around the block a time or two, but I'm home now, and it is good. Though I still have to watch my mouth, gets a bit nasty sometimes. Still, I have no quarrel with most beliefs. They could be no more lost than I was. Thankfully I had people there that showed forth a light in my darkness.

Looking back at the ones that were presented as Christians, I allowed them to stand in my way. It wasn't their fault but a fault in me. There are a lot of things that one can do wrong and by far the worse is to allow those who stand at the gates and can't pass themselves so they keep others from going. It was my own weakness and lack of faith that I fell away. I thank God that I finally figured this out, or was shown it.

Over the years there were those that God has placed in our lives that impact us. For me one of which was the late Deane Harrison, probably the greatest teacher and one of the smartest people I've even had the honor of occupying the same space as. This lady commanded respect from those of us who respected nothing without asking. If she had never spoken a word, though her actions, deeds, mannerisms... she screamed loudly, I have a peace, a love, and faith. She reached out to people that nobody would. To the day she died, I'm not sure if she even realized just how many people she helped when the world had given up on.

Mrs Harrison as well as so many others were there, bet we all can think of a few. Christians that didn't tell you every breath that they were Christian, but they would should you ask. Then again, you never had to ask, it showed in their actions. You hear a lot about you can't work your way to Heaven, but that is not entirely truth. The truth is, you are expected to be known through your works.

This is repeated over and over again and again in the Bible. A tree shall be known by it's fruit. Somehow this gets lost in translation. Personally I think it is Satan. If you can't defeat the enemy from a direct attack then infiltrate. He seems to have quite well done that.

So to this day I place total faith in no man, nor myself, but totally in God and Jesus. I still have many, many faults... but I'm working on them. Rather than base God on man, I base God on God, for none of us compares. For a time I based what God requires on what I call gatekeepers, those that cannot pass yet stop others. Thing is, they have no power over you except that which God allows.

For a time I too wondered why does God do this or that? Why does God allow this or that? I still don't know but I sure hope that Job was the worse of the tests. I'm not sure I could withstand that, I pray I could, but I really don't want to see. Something to think about there when someone says God use me. I am reminded of something an old Indian Chief once said, "It's easy to be brave... from a distance."

I figure there are moments in our life that determine the path we take. Hollywood would have us believe it is always a big event, but it isn't more than it is. It is usually a moment that passes unrecognized until later. It will make a scar, but it passes so quickly that it may numb one for a while. Small, unnoticeable moments.

Here is how powerful we are. Only us alone can determine which path and once on that path, can correct it if it's wrong. I was off track most of my life, still am in some ways, but thank God that He placed those throughout my life that waited for me. You see, I am important to God, but no more important than anyone else.

I spoke recently with the author a a very good book only to see that he was wrong on a certain aspect about God. He tried to rationalize how God is one yet loves three way as we do. Did I argue, no. Through death I learned one thing that I cherish. God's love is not like ours. His love surpasses what we can achieve here in this realm. His love is so much that to this day I can't begin to explain it. No words can and no actions here can. He don't have degrees or types of love, it is a total, complete, consuming, warm, equal love. Imagine if you suddenly had everything you wanted... everything. The feeling you would have still pales in comparison. That don't even do it justice, but it is the only way I know to put it.

So we come to now. I have had those who said my heart attack and two cancers were a punishment, while others say a test. Some will say from the devil while others say from God. Some say from my previous lifestyle, yet I've seen others that led worse ones still doing good. I have no idea who or why, and I really don't care. Whoever or whatever, it has brought me back home. It would be a lie to say I liked it, equally it would be a lie to say I didn't deserve it. The biggest lie though would be to say I didn't need it. It isn't until we lose it all that we find it all.

So who am I to write this? Nobody really, just a guy setting back, trying to build energy for a surgery tomorrow. My body is weak from a flu that lasted until yesterday and my body still aches. Maybe I should put off the surgery as some have suggested until I regain strength, but I think not. Tomorrow a machine will breathe for me. Skilled people will work on me. Prayers will be prayed. I will fight my breath once again. In the end though, God has the final call. If I awake here, good. If I awake there, great. It is well. Either way the world will continue, and so will I.

I've seen more people draw their last breath than I care to over the years. I've watched people die in peace, and I've watched them die in agony. I am at peace. The world seems to be going to Hell in a hand basket, yet I remain at peace. Come what may, I am at peace in my heart. Something that all the stuff I bought, sold, money I've made couldn't bring me. It was never enough. As crazy as it may sound to some, God is enough.

My kids say (other than snakes and bridges) that I don't fear, but they are wrong. I fear no man or no thing that is on earth or the heavens or below. What I do fear is being who I was and what I was, a man in search of something, but he doesn't know what. I fear the one that can kill the soul. But again, I have that control. All that can be done is death of the body, nothing more. We each have the power though of our soul. Go figure.

When I see preachers preaching messages of hate, or those who claim to be Christian talking hate, those I fear for. I fear that one day their hate may seduce me as it seems to have seduced so many. Make your peace. Forgive. Love. If nothing else it boggles the enemies mind. The message that I think Jesus proclaims in the Bible, love, forgiveness, faith. Be that light that shines so that others will want what you are given. Be the change you want to see. When somebody falls, don't point, reach out a helping hand.

So maybe it all comes down to this, maybe not, God will determine that. Thing is, all is well. So who am I? It's not who am I but who I am not. I'm not a choirboy. I'm not a smart man. I'm not a man caught up in dogma. I'm not a perfect man. Most importantly, I'm not a man who walks alone anymore. Anybody can have this, but they have to search and ask for themselves. I use to think people that thought like this were either crazy or desperate. I was wrong.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

The main lesson

There is one thing that I look at when musing upon life. This is the real lesson in this life. I think of everything I have ever studied, read, heard, or listened too, this is what it is all about. So set back and listen to the words. I end up back here all the time, to this, what I consider says the meaning of Christianity, then see if I fit at least one of the requirements.

Rather than write it, here is a video of this one part in all of Creation that we should weigh ourselves and our country on. Silently listen to the words and then think to yourself, Do others see me as this passage says? While rants as to Jesus's politics rages on. Wars and hates rage on. Are we really listening? God is.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011


Sometimes things come along just when we needed to it them the most. I listened to this in it's entirety. Chance or luck isn't quite what we think, but you be the judge. The strange events that took place in this are amazing. Towards the end, you'll here what all took place in order for this one event to occur.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

For Krystal's friends.

In the world on Conspiracies there is just level after level, it is just so easy to get lost. There are deceptions and then there are deceptions of deceptions, even levels of that. Then there are deceptions and diversions that are placed with no malice intended. There are some people that do wrong things for right reasons and some that do wrong things for right reasons.

I guess part of what I'm saying is that the truth will suffice for the truth, but often times how and why it is hidden isn't always in black and white. Sometimes it is gray, not that the truth is ever gray or left open to interpretation, but the presentation of it is. This leaves many of us with the saying I have used for years and still holds true today. The more I know the more I know that I don't know.

When you hear or see someone who has unlocked all the mysteries and found the truth in all subjects... run, run away from them. There are some that focus on just one thing and some that broaden out into many areas, but nobody that I know of knows it all. It's just not possible. Think Tanks (Google that term) are and were made to made sure we don't.

Must gets lost in translation these days, which is funny since one would think that English is understood by all English speaking people. Just like Fallen Angels, demons, devils, evil spirits, aliens (in many Christian circles) are all just ways of saying the same thing in many cases. There are those who fight over the name of Jesus and which should be used, or the day of the week that the Sabbath is on.

Then there is the New Age movement that uses words like vibrational, resonate, frequency... and so on. I heard, and for a while, stopped listening to a great preacher because he was opposed to the word Light when NDErs explain what they had experienced. True, he should have looked a bit deeper, but also true, I should have been so so judgmental. Thing is I guess is that we all need to know that the same words can be used and abused by both sides.

I think it is very important to know why one believes as one does and the truth behind that belief. Then can one actually make an educated choice of what to do. Having said that, I also believe that God knows what is in a man's heart. It is by also knowing the truth that we can be deceived, or, as I tell my kids. I'll tell you the truth and then what you need to know to pass the test in school. We cannot know the truth without knowing the lie these days.

And lies are not just lies, but more often than not, up to 90% truth and 10% lie. Another one to run from are those who say the truth is subjective. If we look at truth as light, think of it this way. You can always reduce and even defeat the darkness with light, but you can never dim the light with darkness, it only gets brighter in appearance. Well, that is truth, but we add another factor in, distance.

A generation (to my understanding) is about 70 years in the Bible. The modern day Jews of Israel say 40 years, but we're not Jewish, so I'll stick to 70. Now we are looking at at least 2011 years at best, older on some cannons. But again, now I digress. Anyway, point being, that we have adopted and changed many, many things that we believe and do and say over these many generations. Maybe one reason we're taught change is good? We'll, that depends on who's good it enhances. Point being, that light is harder to see from the distance.

There is no shortage of material these days on about any matter one wishes to read about or listen to. With this comes so many opinions, so many, and we all know what they say about opinions. Some wish to enlighten you while others wish to keep you in the dark. Then there are others that keep one in the dark without doing it intentionally. There are those too that are there as what I call gatekeepers. They will lead you most if not all the way to the gate, then stop you short of passing through it.

Some get hooked on terms. Words are important and perhaps why we have seen so much effort on the part of those that rule to dumb down society, but like anything else can be taken to the extreme. There are groups that dare anybody to call God (which is actually a title) anything but what they call Him. That's all well and fine except different languages have different pronunciations and as long as you aren't mixing the names of God and gods, it's a mute point to me. Since He created it all, I think He knows His names, note the plural.

I think I have researched and studied about all the Conspiracy Theories out there and most of the ones I've settled with I would label as Agendas. People do conspire against one another and in spite of what the Truther type that you see main stream the loudest, there are those of us that have remained or converted to Christian. We just get shut down more and while those that got semi-truth rage and rant, we continue to research or after seeing what we need, move along to other areas. For real Truth Seekers, half awake is still half asleep.

I've been through the Ickes and Tasarions, and the Maxwells. Nothing personal to Michael and Jordan that I've talked with in the past. I get along with them just fine, but they are wrong. I think the only person that I ever put a lot of trust in was Aaron Russo. Aaron and I never discussed religion, so I can't say his views on that, but he was a good friend. It would not be until after Aaron's death that the world would finally give him credit for his knowledge past his movies and topic of the Federal Reserve.

The whole of the thing is that these days you are going to see a shotgun splatter of everything one can imagine. Seldom is any of it going to be a total lie though, deception works better when properly mixed. The whole point though is to keep you distracted from what really matters and the truth.

Recently a new breed has been coming in the scene, a Christian breed. Now I am not going to say that I totally agree with each and every piece of info the believe, but we are so close it ain't funny. Most of them are smarter than I, from what I've seen. Chris White is at the top of the list so far. His work, honesty and humility is refreshing.

Dr Dino is another that I ran across some years back. I had thought at first Russ Dizdar was a bit extreme until I got an email from a friend who puts out a truth investigation site that I have always endorsed since he first founded it. His last email update though had a New Age video, well made, that showed that Dizdar was not over excited and shed new light into what he was saying. I was blown away. Minister Dante seems to focus on "As The Days Of Noah Were", which is excellent reading. Most these days focus on certain parts with specialty, but are also good on the bulk of it.

The biggest thing for you to know, and even though that have no religion or a different religion than mine is that these people are Luciferian by faith. Even those who no beliefs in good and bad will quickly point out that it really doesn't matter who believes what, it's who has the finances to act upon their belief. These people are powerful and have financial support to do what they believe... to the body. If they think they are a superior race, though in truth they aren't, they will and can act and effect your lives. That said, they have only the control over the spirit, your soul, that you will allow them to have. Remember that above all.

In time, I can save you the whole trip around the world, but I can't make you see anything. One has to do that for one's self. Though I view Romans as evil, they were smart. Ask yourself what they did in any investigation, "Who Benefits?". It's really just that simple. Then look for documentation. In my last tip only you will benefit.

One more tip. If it is declared date driven, it isn't. It is event driven as to how things unfold. They do use numbers they associate with their beliefs. So be aware of 3, 6, 9, 11, and multiples of 11. I could go into that a bit more but I'm sure you will Google it.

Now the biggest tip. You can, and I wouldn't have believed this myself years ago, find this whole thing mapped out in the Bible. I'm not talking about the Bible Code either, the actual Bible.Instead of reading through it like a novel, stop and research the names, places, events, and even the interpretations. Personally I the the KJV is more accurate, but I also have the Geneva Bible as well. Or, read it online. Here is a link to a page that has a lot of translations on it. LINK . Rather than just going through the motions by attending and listening but never looking and researching, it will be just another book.

And that's about it. In the end you will have benefited yourself and hopefully as you learn others around you. You will learn who TPTB are, who runs it and I hope most of all, who you are. How this isn't a battle for money nor physical control, but of spiritual control. You are worth more than transcends this world, and you are loved. The deception is that evil, lie, and darkness are not really terms that describes something, but rather the absence of something that is devout. A lie is the absence of truth. Darkness the absence of light. Hate the absence of love. Evil the absence of good. War the absence of peace. Satan really doesn't want you to know that.

Saturday, May 7, 2011


I'm setting here tonight after a day which was long and while good had some bad with it from my own makings. If this had been years ago I would not be writing, but this is not years ago and things have changed. Then again, years ago I never read, I just waited on the movie or someone to tell me verbally. I done some of that tonight too.

It seems like when I was young, in my teens and early twenties I had life figured out. Man I was smart. If I watch the movies today or TV, kids are depicted as having life right while older people are wrong, and the older they get the dumber they are. Even in the seventies we were taught to respect our elders, to their face. Change is good we were sold. Out with the Old and in with the New, there are endless slogans.

I saw dad today. Not physically or spiritually, but inside myself. I saw and feel now at times like he must have, and it sucks, no other way to out it, it sucks. God knows I'm not the man he was/is, but I saw and felt his tribulations that he must have felt, yet he dealt with it better than I, or at least he never talked about it too much. As I grew older I saw increasingly what a man he was, but I didn't realize just how much a man he was until I got there.

As I get older, the more I know the more I find out I don't know. I'm fifty now and at this rate I'm be completely ignorant by fifty-two, and know I am. I love these ads that say to recover your youth. No thanks, they can keep it. I really don't want to do this again. I try and learn at least one thing new each day, something I retain.

At a Yard Sale a man (older than I) had a knife that dated back to the Nazi Germany era. He noticed my fancy for old tools and things and thought he would show it to me. It was inlaid with a pewter or silver symbol in the bone (real bone) handle. It wasn't in the greatest of shape but the symbol made into it was. He said he wasn't sure but he was told it was from Nazi, and off it started. The symbol was used by Nazi Occult, what the knife was used for, I had no idea, but the symbol was definitely it. That led us to the word origin for Nazi (Sumerian god), etc, etc, etc. Maybe because dad fought in WW2 that made me think of him, or at least started it, who knows.

I listened and answered questions that seemed not really relevant to anything worth saying today while we went from yard sale to yard sale. My wife's driving was intense. Surely we were on a battlefield and damned be the one who slows us down or gets in the way. It all got a bit too much, but I regressed back into a hole for a while. Suddenly I erupted. It started like a puff of smoke then BOOM! I had become a grouchy old man. Even now, knowing I shouldn't have said some of the "colorful adjectives" that I did. Not done the Marine type talk, I still feel both good and bad... mostly bad. How did dad do it? He vented at times but so much more gracefully, most times.

But I saw again tonight, maybe more than usual, a taste of what dad lived in his older years. As I hooked up the Rotovator to the tractor I needed help... but none was found, and I was too proud to ask for it. I had to swing a sledge hammer towards me hitting just below my knee. Now I have a huge knot there and it slowed me down even more getting the garden ready and eventually setting most of the plants. The pain was enough to allow me to show my butt just one more time as I had to have a glass of tea. Guess who was there, just goofing off?

This time though, I really got a dose of the past memories when I returned to the garden. Again I thought of dad. He would smile at young girls and we accused him of flirting. Now days I find out that I, like he, did enjoy talking to a young lady, but anything past that wasn't even considered. It's like you are looking at your kids, even when they are in the thirties, they're kids.

Then I saw him as he was older. He possessed so much vast knowledge it was unbelievable, yet as he age he couldn't get his body to do it. He tried so hard to pass what he knew to do along to me, eventually I started learning, but it would be later on. I never realized just how important that was until now, to have someone to pass your knowledge onto is. Car quit, he fixed it. Needed a house, he built it. In my late twenties I thought I'd make it a race by learning two things he didn't know how to do, electronics and masonry. I done them thinking it was a race yet he was proud of me.

Towards his last years I watched many times with his knowing as he worked on things. His hands crippled from hard work, feet crippled from shoes that didn't fit in WW2, body that was too weak to lift. I saw his eyes. You know the eyes are the mirror to the soul. The eyes can never hide it or lie. I'm not to his point yet, but I'm close, and the thing is, I am building back... I think. He had to know that he was in a declining body, yet he still tried, and usually accomplished what he set out to do.

In my 20s he would have been ignorant. My 30s he would have been stubborn. By my 40s, he was determined and by my 50s he was an inspiration. Now that he is gone, he is an aspiration to become like. He tried to accomplish tasks for everybody that asked, plus his own things too. Some things he could adapt to and others he eventually sought help, usually through a neighbor's son (Dusty) or through whichever one of us he could get. Many times I was too busy, I regret that.

So now it comes full circle. I've become the one that desires to pass down my skills and my knowledge. I'm the old man who knows how to mentally do it, yet physically can't at times. I'm the one who the young ladies talk to without fear, I'm a old man. I'm the one who's occasionally bursts are just seen and probably laughed off as the blathering of an old man. I didn't see this coming and yet it is the natural way of things. At times I feel alone. I just pray that I can do this ending as well as he did.

I'm not sure that I can though. This man fought to win freedom when he was a kid, I fought to a song saying the right to party... bit different there. Maybe that is why he opted out of the system in a way. He liked new vehicles yet desired none, he loved his truck. He drove a 1050 F1 until 1970 when he bought an F-100, and drove that one until 1990 when he bought an F-150, ahhh, but this one had luxury, unlike the first two. He didn't desire name brand clothing and although mom seen to it that he had the best, he knew not one from the other, nor did he care. Now he did like to eat out sometimes and he always dressed gone. He would help you even when you wouldn't help him.

He took on raising a son from a step daughter when it wasn't his obligation, treating both as if they were his own. He made sure this son knew that both parents were always loved and welcomed, even after they stopped loving each other. He always made sure everybody had what they needed, while nobody knew if he wanted anything. He had what he needed, peace and love. I'm guessing he seen enough absence of that during the war. A lot of that though we saw.

What I didn't see was just how it felt to be told you are outdated, even worse, treated that way. Kinda like treated like a child or a second hand rag by both the younger ones and his own body. To awake tired yet try and go anyway. To try and smile, even though the pain is at times more than you once thought you could bare. Yet he handled it so well.

Now as I stand there... ok, I was actually sitting, I ask myself one question, and only one. As I sat in the damp garden soil with my shinbone nearly broke, doing what I can and trying to figure out how to get back up or move to the next location. How am I suppose to fill this man's shoes? Even if I work hard at it, how?

Then I looked at it like we all play roles in life, different in some stages. He gave me a good name, so I had a start. Instilled in me faith in God and honor and duty. Something said even back then was outdated. He then left the rest up to me and hoped it was enough. If I live long enough, maybe by his example it will be, for I will ever remember those crippled hands and feet that never complained. Those wide open blue eyes that showed love even when he was mad. His silly things he done just to get a laugh, playing the fool intentionally just for a smile.

So maybe it is true that you reap what you sew, good karma attracts good karma, things you do come back to you. Days like these I think about him and how he must have felt, but then I remember what I saw mostly. A man that never invented anything, wrote a book, been on TV, and in time will fade from the memories of the next generation... but his teaching I pray will.

So dad, this one's for you...

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

A couple of questions I was asked.

While I will not give out the name of the person that sent me these questions, and I did answer it late last night, this is an attempt to answer maybe a little better. The person who asked this said they have started reading one of my blogs.

Wasn't quite sure but from what I gathered you are saying that Lust is a bad thing?

First we have to know what the word Lust is. Words are simple the annunciation of feelings. Simple a verbal display of what is in the heart and mind. What resides there controls the soul and the spirit. For the word Lust we have this meaning:

Lust: 1. a: pleasure, delight b: personal inclination: wish 2. intense or unbridled sexual desire: lasciviousness 3. a: intense longing: craving a lust to succeed b: enthusiasm, eagerness admired his lust for life.

As we see a couple of words that aren't bad, Pleasure and Delight, but Personal Inclination can float either way, for now one is thinking of one's self. All of those at the top of the power structure have personal inclinations toward profit and personal pleasure. As long as your pleasure and delight are pure and bridled, and you do not have a personal inclination to intensify these feelings, while putting God and others first. Do that and it is a good thing, anything less isn't.

The next definition refers to sexual. As long as it's your wife you keep it under control, that isn't a bad thing, provided that there is more than sex and you are making love. Every animal I know of has the capability of sex.

is a word synonymous with lustful or lewd or unruly
. Things like weird sex, porn, etc, so the definitely ain't good. Most Serial Killers have that trait.

The last and final thing is what the ones who you spoke about feed on... the eagerness for what they call life. Don't get me wrong, you should have an eagerness for life... to an extent. Everything we do here, buy here, sell here, collect, build is nothing more than Moth & Rust. Just as well said, dust in the wind. We should have a desire for what is to come one day while enjoying what God has given us now. Thing is, through media and deceit, we're taught what they call life and how to enjoy it their way. For TPTB, this is life and all there is to it. For Christians this is life and the best is yet to come one day, should we remain steadfast.

So now you see why I think lust is really bad. It is the shiny hook dangling and swaying ever so gently in the water, tossing glimmers across the way. Appealing to the eye, looking more valuable and less dangerous than the old hook dangling beside it. Like the fish we bite it, realizing too late in many cases that it was the same old line, just polished up a bit.

2) you said that for all the wrong you asked God for forgiveness and were given it. This leads me to ask an obvious question. If we can be forgiven can't we just live like everyone else. Most people don't have the opportunity or the tools to know what you have learned. Won't they be forgiven as well? From what I gather we are only judged by ourselves in the end, is that the underlying message. I know you will have a more in depth answer to this question I hope. I realize the message is to not do the wrongs but just curious on your thoughts.

I often wonder what would have happened if I had just dropped dead on the spot. I've had friends that just went in the blink of an eye, so we're not guaranteed that we will have time to ask for forgiveness. Even when we do though, I wonder if during life's journey, once off the path, do we realize just how far off we've drifted?

My daughters and I were riding the waves onto the beach, (when I was healthier), and when we looked up we couldn't see our umbrellas. The tide had slowly carried us away to what at first looked the same, yet our familiar umbrella was no longer in our sight. Of course we found it, but it did take time. Thing is, will we have that time?

Or the time I was using a map dad had loaned me to go to the beach. He had not bought a map since WW2, and I didn't look at the date on the map book. We drove at least 2 hours the wrong direction, lol.

I guess what I'm saying is that we can go so deep in the woods that the trees get in our way of sight. We become lost and while we may eventually find our way out, what happens if it happens in a blink of an eye. While I'm not into pain, the pain I felt that night was a small cost to pay to end up being in God's light. I was blessed with time.

As far as judging, we are not judged against another human. We are judged by God's laws. I think He knows that we will all fall short... way short, but He offers Grace through Jesus Christ to fill in the gap between us and Him. So while God doesn't judge us to others, He judges us to His own laws that He has set forth. He isn't this big angry God just waiting to damn anybody, if we are damned then we damn ourselves. We are His creation, as are all things, and He is full of love.

I had a lady a while back say she didn't believe in Hell. This really puzzled me. How is it that we can believe in Heaven without Hell looking about at all the world? I thought back to a vacation we went on where we forced the kids to go. They stayed so mad that it pretty much made the trip a mini Hell. We didn't do that but twice, after that, we left the ones that didn't want to go at home.

While I believe that anybody can ask for forgiveness and receive it, there is a catch to that too. Say I walk up and hit you, then say I'm sorry. Chances are you will accept my apology. Then I hit you again and repeat the same thing over and over. It isn't going to take you too long before you see that I am offering only lip service and that I am not truly sorry. I'm basically saying repentance.

In the Light of God there are no shadows, no corners, no place to hide anything. That was one thing I observed that really stuck with me... no shadows. Everything was brought to light and man do I mean everything. Thoughts, spoken words, actions, the basis for those actions, feelings. Imagine you have to watch a movie, 3D, of your every thought. You are there and you know this is you and suddenly you want to scream out and tell yourself better than to think or act that way. But you can't. The only thing you can do is observe and then answer back yes or no. You are no longer seeing yourself through your own eyes but through perfect eyes. There is no going back and there is no being good enough to get to the level that is deserving. That is where two things God has, Grace and Mercy.

I think that through my studies over the years the most corrupt people would be Rothschild and Rockefeller. They make Hitler look like a saint. In my honest opinion, even they can be forgiven if they are sincere and turn to God. That would mean they would have to give up their current god though and change, but it could happen. They could repent.

There is a song that the line was taken out of the Bible, "God is mighty to save". I don't know, nor would I even guess, how God will judge those who have not had the opportunity to know Him, but I truly believe He has all that worked out. But often what I believe and what is said are two different things, so let's take a peek.

Luke 12:
48But he that knew not, and did commit things worthy of stripes, shall be beaten with few stripes. For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required: and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more.

In that same Luke 12, there is a quote that also answers why we should try and live better. So let's go back and see what Jesus said about living right.

Luke 12:
41Then Peter said unto him, Lord, speakest thou this parable unto us, or even to all? 42And the Lord said, Who then is that faithful and wise steward, whom his lord shall make ruler over his household, to give them their portion of meat in due season? 43Blessed is that servant, whom his lord when he cometh shall find so doing. 44Of a truth I say unto you, that he will make him ruler over all that he hath. 45But and if that servant say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming; and shall begin to beat the menservants and maidens, and to eat and drink, and to be drunken; 46The lord of that servant will come in a day when he looketh not for him, and at an hour when he is not aware, and will cut him in sunder, and will appoint him his portion with the unbelievers. 47And that servant, which knew his lord's will, and prepared not himself, neither did according to his will, shall be beaten with many stripes.

This is just one of the instances where I believe that one is judged by their own actions and deeds. A person can be Saved and Baptisted and yet not Born Again . That isn't the general info that many Christians believe. Thing is, when your eyes open, the things of this world no longer bring you pleasure and when you look back, they didn't back then either. Just a quick fix until the next fix... ever longing, full yet still hungry. So I do believe that it takes more than just faith in God, even Satan and his angels have faith and believe that God is God. It takes a saving faith. Then our deeds and actions will fall into place. Rather than bumper stick or fish symbol on the car, you will be know by your fruit to be a child of God. The right God.

So I could go into more detail on this, and I will be glad to do it if you want. The biggest message I guess I want to convey is that you are loved, wanted, needed... even at times when you don't love yourself, God still loves you. He still wants you. While times may get tough and may even become a living Hell, there is still a peace that only He can give. You may fall from time to time but a fall doesn't determine who or what we are, it is how we get back up and how we conduct ourselves after we do.

One can spend their time here in this world running from fix to fix, always wanting. One can collect all the "finer things" (or so we've been taught), never having enough, always in search and lust for more. Treasures that you cannot take and in time will return back to where they originated from, yep, even plastic. Or you can spend your time working on improvement, one that can go with you, one that you leave something that all the world's money can't buy to your children....a good name.

This will by no means bring peace always, the world has it's was of beating one in the ground at times, but it will make sure that you will never be alone. If God be for us, who can stand against us.

Monday, May 2, 2011


Enlightenment, I sure can't believe I spelled that right the first time. Everybody wants to be enlightened, especially in this crazy world we live in, and rightly so. There are false enlightenments and yet only one true enlightenment. Well, actually if you boil it all down there only two sides it falls on. False and True. I placed false first because false is often remodeled so that people that wouldn't take the bait will take a regular bait, polished bait looks different. Same hook though, it is just made to look different and shiny.

So after an NDE I will have to say that some things change... ok, a lot of things change. There is an enlightenment that we came back with, but the world has a way of even perverting that too if given a door. Knowing that and having said that, I speak from my own experience and experiences differ. While I mean no disrespect, NDEs (near death experiences) are not OBEs (Out Of Body experiences). OBEs can be chemically induced and the body is still functioning. Stressful pain and other things can bring about an OBE.

If anything, I came back with more questions than I left with, just the important ones got answered, something that I could have just as easily learned with dying. I was just too busy with living the "American Dream" and as George Carlin once put it, "It's called the American Dream because you have to be asleep to believe it." Shame though, he had that right as well as so much, yet the most important things he had so wrong.

Something I think we can all relate with is the sun and moon. We often say the moon gives off her light, yet we know the moon is only a reflection of the sun's light... totally depend on the sun's light. Without the sun the moon would be lost in the darkness. That is pretty much the way this world works. Without the love of God, the world would fall apart. Even those who don't believe in God benefit from His love and glory. From His mercy and grace. Satan and his demons would not be restrained, I'm not even sure they would remain for very long.

So what keeps us from enlightenment? Why can we not become enlightened? We can, but it requires a lot of work... and then death one day after all the work has been done. There are people who attend church every time the doors open for all their life that never become any more enlightened than they were born with. Actually, babies are probably more enlightened and our bulb dims slowly from this world and our body. Just as it dims though it is hard to rekindle, it takes a lot of work... but it can be done to a certain extent.

There are those who want people to remain in darkness, especially if they think they have become enlightened. Someone once said that there are nobody more enslaved than those who think they are free. Then again, Hitler once said that whoever controlled the past controls the present, and whoever controls the present controls the future. Few would know that the word origin of Nazi is the name of a Sumerian god. Therein lies the way to enlightenment, learning the true past.

Oddly enough, though some would disagree, the Bible is factual. Stop and think for a moment. If this book was fiction to control the masses, why on earth would it tell the bad accounts? It's not that the stories has been changed, it's what has been left out, and it would surprise most people. Let me give you an example.

Say for instance I said that someone was black yarding. How many would know that was old term for the word cussing, which became cursing, which became foul language. Probably not many. Uans for example is slang for y'all, which means you all. Now this was just in our language in the last century. What I consider common knowledge, someone from another region would probably not know, and vise-versa. So when the books were written, they wrote from common knowledge of their region and their times.

When I was a kid, most of what the Bible had to say in predictions was not even though possible, but it is now. What went on before the flood? Just how advanced were these people back then? Why is that so important to us now? The last question is easily answered as those who don't remember the past are condemned to repeat it.

The Bible was also confirmed when the Dead Sea Scrolls were found. A pretty much complete copy was found along with other books that answer most things that puzzled or cause questions and bring about "footnotes" from people in the field. Why do Theologians read these books and the Vatican keep them safely out of the eyes of the people? What do they not want you to know, and why? Why was Jesus so attacked, even until this day?

There are so many groups that are teaching enlightenment... or at least promising to. I personally do not believe that anybody, while in these bodies, in this realm, can reach total enlightenment, but it's not a bad thing to try. As long as one is headed towards the real source of Light and not the false source of light.

I'm not that much on religion, but God and Jesus... now that is another story all together. So here is the truth about it. We enlighten each other, as much as possible. By using the Bible and not just scanning through it like a .10 cents fiction novel, read it. As Tom Horn once said, "It's not where you are in the Word, it's where the Word is in you". When you get to a part you don't know, or are unsure about, research it.

As far as just one reason they attack Jesus to this day, He was enlightenment. He was the Son of Man and the Son of God, both at the same time.... but how many know the difference and what this translates to? Son of Man means born unto a woman while Son of God refers to those who were directly created by God, no mother involved. Angels are Son of God. He went and kept the 10 Commandments and at the same time, added the greatest one. Love Thy Neighbor As Thyself. Lets look at a direct quote and silently to yourself, see what you lack.

Matthew 5

1And seeing the multitudes, he went up into a mountain: and when he was set, his disciples came unto him:

2And he opened his mouth, and taught them, saying,

3Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

4Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.

5Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.

6Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.

7Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

8Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.

9Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.

10Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

12Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

13Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.

14Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

15Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house.

16Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.

17Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets: I am not come to destroy, but to fulfil.

18For verily I say unto you, Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled.

19Whosoever therefore shall break one of these least commandments, and shall teach men so, he shall be called the least in the kingdom of heaven: but whosoever shall do and teach them, the same shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven.

20For I say unto you, That except your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, ye shall in no case enter into the kingdom of heaven.

21Ye have heard that it was said of them of old time, Thou shalt not kill; and whosoever shall kill shall be in danger of the judgment:

22But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire.

23Therefore if thou bring thy gift to the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath ought against thee;

24Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.

25Agree with thine adversary quickly, whiles thou art in the way with him; lest at any time the adversary deliver thee to the judge, and the judge deliver thee to the officer, and thou be cast into prison.

26Verily I say unto thee, Thou shalt by no means come out thence, till thou hast paid the uttermost farthing.

27Ye have heard that it was said by them of old time, Thou shalt not commit adultery:

28But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.

29And if thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell.

30And if thy right hand offend thee, cut it off, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell.

31It hath been said, Whosoever shall put away his wife, let him give her a writing of divorcement:

32But I say unto you, That whosoever shall put away his wife, saving for the cause of fornication, causeth her to commit adultery: and whosoever shall marry her that is divorced committeth adultery.

33Again, ye have heard that it hath been said by them of old time, Thou shalt not forswear thyself, but shalt perform unto the Lord thine oaths:

34But I say unto you, Swear not at all; neither by heaven; for it is God's throne:

35Nor by the earth; for it is his footstool: neither by Jerusalem; for it is the city of the great King.

36Neither shalt thou swear by thy head, because thou canst not make one hair white or black.

37But let your communication be, Yea, yea; Nay, nay: for whatsoever is more than these cometh of evil.

38Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:

39But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.

40And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloak also.

41And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.

42Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away.

43Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.

44But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

45That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.

46For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?

47And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so?

48Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.

Those that promise enlightenment without Jesus have false promises, false light, false hopes. Hopes that leave us lacking, always in need, always fearful, never full. They build false castles, create debt, and are usually prideful. Neither I or anybody else can offer true enlightenment, only Jesus and God the Father can.

You know, the thought sometimes runs in my head as to what I had a heart attack an NDE, two cancers, and while the pain has been great, through pain and suffering I am finding my way to enlightenment. Thing is, I could have done this the whole time without all the pain and suffering.

I've never seen Heaven but I've seen Hell on Earth, but maybe, just maybe, that has straighten me out to see Heaven one day. If one can live by the verses listed above, then one would be enlightened.

Some will look upon this and say that it would be a sacrifice to do this, or that it would be no fun left. I'll submit that living apart from this is the real sacrifice. Living apart from this is the thing that takes the fun out of life. Once a person travels down this road, fun and sacrifice perspectives change.

I'm a car nut, well, actually any type of motor nut myself. At one time I looked at people driving new cars, we kept one too, and lusted after a new car. That has all changed now. Now I see someone chasing that American Dream, you know, the empty one. Those designed clothes... means nothing. What I am impressed with these days is people who, not having much, give unto those who have less. People that live within their means. The person that doesn't point when another falls... anybody can do that, but rather lends a hand up.

There is one and only one Ascended Master... Jesus, and that scares the pants off of The Powers That Be. He is your path to God The Father and offers enlightenment, but you have to work at it. One cannot channel or conjure up Jesus but one can talk with Him because He is always here. He is probably not going to give you that big house or new car, and we know that money ain't His thing either. What He will offer though is enlightenment, a real enlightenment. Once one gets going on all of that though the former things and self have been left behind. It's amazing just how much weight that lifts off. Bad things will still probably happen, but then again, we wouldn't need Heaven if this was Heaven. You will be full and in need of no other spirits.

Thing is, I can't, nor can anybody else offer someone true enlightenment. I struggle for it myself. This is something that using your free will in a positive way will help you work towards. By doing so you help mostly yourself directly and others by being that candle in the wind. There are no maybes or what ifs. No middle ground. Try this. Turn a regular light switch on, then off. Now try and find a happy medium by getting it to where the light either flickers or half way lights up. You can't, and this is the way life is. Right or wrong. On or off. I really don't know how else to explain it.

We have all the answers we need right in front of us. Some parts takes effort to dig up while the bulk of it was canonized in a book that The Powers That Be have tried reverently to destroy. Twisted it to their needs. Used it as a play book. Questioned and never proven wrong. A perfect manual for living enlightened.

I often wonder if I had not gotten so sick so many times, would I have taken the time to really know what it says. What it contains. We have been conditioned from birth to fight against the Bible's teachings. In school. In movies. In music. Here is something I really need to get off my chest. The Jewish media needs to lay off the attacks on Jesus. I already don't watch much TV and it is getting less each day. The best part about a TV is the on and off button.

But this is really not what I want to write about, there are some people that cover this topic well, much better than I do. People like Chris White, Tom & Nita Horn, Ruzz Diaz, and I'll also have to include Mike Hoggard and Dr David Jeremiah... to name a few. My whole purpose to try and present some facts and one of the facts, probably the most important fact, is that you are loved. Even when you don't feel loved.